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Moving On…

It has been a long time since we wrote an entry to our blog.  We do have good reasons and we will be sharing them with you over the coming months.  Since there has been a time lapse, we feel we need to go back before coming forward.

“And there was much weeping on the part of all; they embraced Paul and kissed him being sorrowful most of all because of the word he had spoken, that they would not see his face again. And they accompanied him to the ship.” Acts 20: 37 – 38

Family bond

When God says it time to move… You’ve got to move!  We shared with the churches we visited during our Home Assignment in the UK between June – July, that we have now left NightLight.  It was a decision that was very hard for us to make, we prayed, we shared with our Life Group (Small Group), we listened for God and His perfect timing.  When God’s clear answer came, it was a bitter pill for us to swallow…

The ladies at NightLight have become our family, and God was telling us it was time to leave them.  Over the 5-6 years we were there, we witnessed God’s transformation in many of the women lives, seeing them step into freedom, accepting Jesus, getting baptised, moving forward with confidence, self worth and stepping into leadership roles.

Just like a family we had many joyous occasions, where we would laugh together to the point of happy tears, barely able to catch our breath.  When the times of sorrow came, we cried together baring each others pain.

Our last weep together – Gathering in prayer for us

Whilst we were there, God taught us so much about ourselves.  We had the great honour of pouring into the women, however without realising it, many of the ladies also poured into us.  God has an amazing way of surrounding you with people, when you need it most.  We counselled and prayed for each other, sharing deep and personal areas of our lives that could only be shared when an amazing family bond had been formed.

A few days before our last day at NightLight, they prepared a leaving gathering for us.  It was the day we had been dreading, the day when the reality that we were actually leaving kicked in.  Nothing could have prepared us for wave of emotions that we felt.  Many of the ladies shared how we had impacted their lives, what we meant to them and how much they were going to miss us.

There was not a dry eye to be seen; another but final moment when we would all weep together.  I (Sarah) was a blubbering mess with tears and snot everywhere (sorry, it was not a pretty sight!).  I don’t think I have ever cried so much when leaving a place of work…even Paul shed a tear!  The women have left a huge stamp on our hearts, which we will never forget.  We will miss them dearly.

Since leaving we have been able to keep in contact with some of the ladies and those we know really well, have invited us to their homes.

So, God says it time for us to move on… So in obedience to Him, move on we will do.  We do not know all the plans for our next stage, but God is revealing the puzzle to us a little at a time.  We sense that God is calling us to start up a Business as Mission company, of which we are completely looking to God for guidance.  We will still be with BMS, and they are supporting us through this next stage.  We are not sure if we will remain in Bangkok or if it will be another location in Thailand.  As we step into this unknown and a new journey, we do know that it is all in God’s hands and by His grace, he will reveal all to us in His perfect timing.

We will be sharing with you how God’s plans have been unfolding over the coming weeks and months.

In the meantime can you please pray for us, as we seek His will with all the preparation, business planning, the location in Thailand, finances, our visas, our Thai business partner and finding a retail space.

Thank you for all of the cards and emails we receive from so many of you.  They always arrive, when we need a boost of encouragement.

 

 

 

BMS World Mission Bringing faith in Christ and the life only he can provide

 

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Lost & Found

Here is an account from the Founder & CEO of NightLight – Annie Dieselberg

“Recently, my laptop was stolen at the airport.

I had left it accidentally at the security gate, and someone decided to help themselves to it. Thankfully, airport security personnel immediately checked the cameras and were able to locate the man who stole it. Within a half hour—and with only two minutes to spare—I got my laptop back and caught my plane.

I recently shared this story on Facebook and was struck by how many people “liked” the post. I realized that the fear of having something stolen or lost is a feeling most people can easily relate to. Hearing that my laptop was returned so efficiently gave people just a little bit of hope.

Maybe that’s why Jesus told the parables of the lost coin, the lost sheep, and the prodigal son. The theme of losing something valuable and searching to find it resonates with people around the world, in every era. When what was lost is not just a coin but something of our very own, the intensity and emotional connection with this experience grows. It’s a fear every parent understands.

It’s not as easy to relate to victims of human trafficking and exploitation. Yet every night in Bangkok (and around the world), lost daughters walk the streets in hopes of being found. Their parents do not know where they are and sometimes have not yet even realized that they are lost. These daughters cannot find their way home from this foreign land. They stumble around in the dark; their vulnerability being exploited night after night. The immediate terror and panic of being truly lost eventually gets pushed down beneath layers of coping strategies, but it doesn’t take much to trigger the fear, the trauma, and the alienation. Their dignity, their freedom, their lives have been stolen from them.

**Anna was hired to work as a maid for a family in the Middle East. Once there, however, she was enslaved and forced to work for no pay under a cruel boss. Her employer brought her to Bangkok, where she was beaten and thrown out on the streets with no documents and no means of taking care of herself. Suddenly on the streets, alone in a foreign land, Anna realized she was hungry, desperate, and very lost. Anna had to turn to prostitution for survival. Soon after, she was picked up by the police and thrown in the immigration detention center, where she stayed for 4 months and had no way to access help or family. She did not know if she would ever find her way home.

One day, however, our help line number was given to Anna. Calling us from the pay phone inside the detention center, she begged us for help. Recently, Anna was finally delivered from the jail with a ticket to go home. The immigration truck brought her to the airport the night of her departure, and we were waiting there to celebrate with her. Anna could not stop thanking us, though she said she had no words to adequately express what she was feeling. She had been lost and was found. She was now on her way home.

“We have been called to heal wounds, to unite what has fallen apart, and to bring home those who have lost their way,” wrote St. Francis of Assisi. When a child, mother, sister, or daughter is found and returned, even the angels celebrate. Jesus came to seek and to save the lost. We celebrate this love which compels us to join in the search, to set the captives free, and to help those who have lost their way to find their way back home. For these women, this is a demonstration of love they will never forget”.

**Anna’s name has been changed to protect her identity.

Praise God for:

  • The number of women that NightLight has assisted and repatriated back to their home countries, through the anti-trafficking programme.

  • The amazing restoration, transformation, confidence building and counselling, to help women walk in freedom, that come into the NightLight International Programme Centre.

Pray for:

  • The many women that are still lost hoping to be found.  Pray that NightLight’s help line number makes it’s way safely to the women who need us to help them.

  • Pray for NightLight to be in the right places at the right time, to reach out and help those that have been trafficked.

We are looking forward to seeing many of you, when we are in the UK during May – July 2018.

BMS World Mission partnered with NightLight International


Pass It On…

I watched as the bakery ladies buzzed around the bakery, with *P Mon giving gentle directions “…*Noon have you checked that the following items are packed in the case, from the check list – weighing scales, mixing bowl, recipes, cupcake tin, cupcake cases, buttercream, palette knife, piping nozzles, piping bags… We don’t want to forget anything for the workshop!…”

I (Sarah) could hear the excitement in their voices, and sense the tension and nervousness in their body language as 3 ladies of the bakery team, prepared all the equipment needed to take with them to teach their first ever external bakery workshop!

I took a moment to remember how far they have all come from, not just learning in the Freedom Bakery, but the total transformation that has and is continuing to happen in their lives – they are definitely not being defined by their past.  God is an amazing miracle worker!

The Freedom Bakery ladies wearing the white hats; teaching others from difficult situations, bringing hope & joy.

I was further reminded about the gifts & talents that God has given to all of us.  When God blesses us with gifts and talents they are never just for our own benefit.  He doesn’t bless us with talents and skills so we can look brilliant or  be selfish with it!  God wants us to steward those gifts for Him!  To bless others and build His kingdom.

When we unwrap what God has given us, use it well and remember that even though the gift has our name on it, it doesn’t mean it is all for us.  God uses our obedience and stewardship in wonderful and spectacular ways to bless others, with hope and joy in a way that we just can not do in our own strength.

As I watched the beautiful bakery ladies that 2 years ago had no bakery skills (many Thai homes still do not have an oven), that were fearful of the oven, frightened of the mixers and insisted the microwave was going to blow up…  move so confidently around the kitchen.  I thanked God for providing me with the privilege of using me to be part of their lives; yes teaching them baking and cake decorating has been part of it, but most of all God has given me the opportunity to pray into their lives, for trust to be built so they are able to share some of their most deepest life experiences, to pray with them when they feel all hope is lost, to laugh and cry with them and tell they can, when their confidence takes a knock.

On many occasions I questioned God, what am I doing this for?  I can’t do this, my brain is exploding from trying to teach in Thai, can I give up now Lord?  How am I supposed to win souls with baking & cake decorating?  When my own confidence took a blow, life and spiritual struggles caused me to be discouraged or forgetting that I don’t need to do this all in my own strength.

To hold onto God, and remain obedient with the gifts and talents He has given me has been well worth it!  On Friday 6th October, I witness 3 ladies of the bakery team confidently lead and teach their first external workshop (outside of NightLight at another organisation), teaching ladies making the decision to leave the sex industry.

Bakery team wearing white hats. Giving a guiding hand, practicing how to pipe buttercream. *Face has been blurred to project her identity.

When we got to the workshop, I had a brief wobbly moment, that they couldn’t do it and would need my help, so I proceeded to put on my hat and apron ready to help!  I immediately heard *Noon say to me in a firm voice… “What are you doing?  Take it off! We can do this!”  That’s when the tears of joy began to sting my eyes, when I gained further understanding of how God is using me and the gifts His has given me to fulfil His purpose in their lives.

I am soooooooo proud of the bakery ladies, on their first workshop I cried with joy and smiled so hard (my cheeks hurt!), I even jumped up and down praising God! I watched them teach with such professionalism, giving advice and answering all the questions.  They taught all of it by themselves with very, very, very very… did I say ‘very’ minimal assistance!  I just stood in the background and took pictures, feeling like a spare part… Which was fantastic!!!  They are all teachers in their own right!

God receives the praise and the glory since none of this has been done in my own strength… Trust me, I would have given up ages ago if it was left down to me!

Jesus gives us two commandments: to love the Lord and to love others as we love ourselves. – Matthew 22:37–40.  So when we steward our talents to honour Him and to bless others, we are doing just that.

Pass it on…  God wants to use your unique role in the body of Christ.  So, if like me it is baking, then bake, singing, then sing. If your talent is a little less conventional—maybe you’re good with numbers, computers or play the bass like Paul (who teaches bass lessons, advises on computers and computer skills) — then find a way to translate that into a job to glorify God.  Use your God-given abilities to reach those who don’t know Him—and give God the praise for all He has given.  Pass it on…

* Names have been changed to protect their identities

Thank God for:

  • The bakery ladies confidence and courage to lead independently a bakery workshop to reach out to others.

  • The bakery team taking ownership of the Freedom Bakery. 

  • There are 5 extra external workshops lined up for the month of October, that the team will be running. 

Pray for:

  • For conditioned confidence, growth and development of the bakery ladies.

  • For the extra 5 external workshops being held in October at 2 different organisations.

  • Pray for the women that will attend these workshops, that they will be impacted by them and good conversations and relationships can be made. 

BMS World Mission partnered with NightLight International 


Return Home

welcome-homeIt has been a while since we have written a blog, so we will be spoiling you all with 2 blogs in a very short time frame.  Please keep posted!

It has been nearly 3 months since we returned back from the UK on our 3rd Home Assignment!  We also marked and celebrated several dates in June – Sarah’s Birthday, our 5th wedding anniversary and at the end of June, noted that it has now been over 4 years since we have been serving and living in Thailand! Where has the time gone!

For us coming back to the UK for Home Assignment is always bittersweet, since we really miss the ladies we work with, friends and family we have formed in Thailand and now regard Thailand as home.   However it is always a joy to see family, friends and visit the Churches in the UK.

For Sarah, it was good to see her Mum, since whilst in Thailand she has been very concerned about her health. Unfortunately last year November her Mum fell and broke her hip and coupled with late stage Parkinson’s her mobility has suffered.  Thank God, she looked much healthier than when we saw her last year.  Her mobility is still not great, but she still has all her faculties, she loves to sing even though her voice is sometimes affected by the Parkinson’s and is still a strong prayer warrior.

We would like to say thank you to all of the Churches for your amazing hospitality, support, encouragement and prayers.  It always overwhelms us to know how much support and generosity we receive.

We were warmly welcomed back to NightLight with gifts and hand written notes on our desks.  It was wonderful to see all the women.  While we were away 4 more women joined NightLight.  However 1 of the women unfortunately left and went back to work in the sex industry, we are hoping she will return.  The rise in the number of women coming forward so far this year, is amazing, since this means more women are feeling encouraged to leave the sex industry and walk in freedom.  Please keep these women in your prayers, we will explain more about these women in a future blog.  In the meantime please keep them in your prayers. 

Bakery Miracle

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Bakery women working on a customer order – Minion Cake

A wonderful miracle has happened in the bakery!  Sarah and Julie (who assists in the bakery) had been praying since the end of the last year for extra help.  It was very specific as to who the person needed to be, with Sarah being the only Thai speaking person in the bakery, so she had to do all of the translation.  We didn’t even get round to advertising for the post, we just kept praying!

Here is what we were praying for – Job Spec:- Someone who is a Christian, a Thai national that speaks English well, someone that comes with all the skills and elements of baking and sugar crafting (since there is no time to teach a new teacher, with time taken up teaching the women and completing customer orders), someone who would be able to help Sarah with the admin and marketing, with management abilities and someone willing to accept a very low salary!

At the time our prayer request seemed like a tall order, since there are not many Thai Christians in Bangkok, many of the Thais that speak English well, generally choose to work with bigger companies that pay generous salaries.  Baking and sugar crafting is still fairly new to Thailand, so to find someone with these skills was going to be hard and if they did have these skills they would probably either go to work for a top hotel or open their own business!

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Finished cake by the bakery women – Minion Cake

Well… Our God is the God of impossibilities!  During July whilst we were still in the UK.  A young Thai lady in her early 30’s, walked into the bakery to say that she had been living in the US for the last 15 years; she explained in excellent English that someone at her Church had told her about the work we were doing in the Freedom Bakery at NightLight.  She explained that she is the only Christian in her family and has been a Christian for 6 years.  She then went onto explain, she has just in the last 1-2 years made the transition from being an Accountant to training in bakery (patisserie) and sugar crafting skills and only just arrived back from the US in June to relocate to Thailand.  Would we be able to use her in the bakery?…

Sarah received the information about her whilst in the the UK.  Paul & Sarah begun praying about it and felt a sense of peace about it.  We arranged to meet her when we got back to Thailand.  After 2 lengthy interviews and happy to accept the very low salary that we could offer!  The Freedom Bakery is please to introduce a new member of the team called Panita.  She started on the 1st September and is already becoming a great asset in the bakery and administration.  Having another Thai speaker especially a Thai national is a huge weight off Sarah’s shoulders and a great help.  The women are also warming to her well.  

In September the bakery successfully showcased their cakes at an an expat event.  It was wonderful to see the women at the

One of the bakery women, proudly exhibiting their cakes at the expat event

One of the bakery women, proudly exhibiting their cakes at the expat event

event, interacting with the Thai visitors that were taking an interest in their spectacular cakes; with the women confidently answering their questions.  This year has seen the women skills and abilities climb to a new level and as teachers we are having to assist much less.  They are even now telling us how to do many of the techniques!  Which is a great testimony to how God is working in the bakery.   

On the 21st November, the bakery will welcome a new trainee, she will join the bakery as an apprentice.  She has just recently left the sex industry and is determined to move forward with a new start.  Please keep this in your prayers as we prepare to teach her, walk alongside and help her step into a transformed life

The Freedom Bakery has again this year, been nominated by Entrepreneur Now Asia in the Social Enterprise category.  We have been invited to attend the award night which is due to take place on the 23rd November.  Even if we don’t win an award, we know that the ladies have achieved so much and beyond.

NightLight Ladies Growing in Confidence

Niim playing for the first time in the International Church to a congregation of over 800 people

Niim playing for the first time in the International Church to a congregation of more than 1000 people

We had the wonderful privilege to witness recently one of the NightLight women *Niim play with the band at in the International Church we attend.  The International Church has a congregation of more than 1000 people with about 50+ different nationalities (over 2 morning services).  *Niim plays and leads worship at NightLight’s Church plant, which normally has a congregation of about 30!  So a much lower numbers than she is used to.   This was a first time experience for her playing in front of such a large number of people, but she approached it with such confidence and grace.  God really used her.  It made our hearts smile!

 

Give Thanks For:

  • Our time spent in the UK.  It was a blessing to be with family, visit Churches we already knew and make links with new Churches.

  • The bakery women that coped so well on their own, whilst myself and Julie were away over the summer period.

  • The women that have made the decision to leave the sex industry and come to work at NightLight.
  • The new Thai member of staff that God has provided for the bakery.

  • The Freedom Bakery successfully exhibited their work/cakes at a expat event.

  • The Freedom Bakery being nominated again this year, for the Entrepreneur Now Asia in the Social Enterprise category.

  • God giving *Niim the confidence to play in the International Church.

  • God’s continued guidance in the bakery.  None of what has been achieved has been in our own strength.  The honour and glory goes to God alone for what has been achieved so far.

Please Pray For:

  • The new women that have started at NightLight in the last few months.  Pray that God will provide them with the strength and encouragement to move forward to step into freedom and transformation.  For God to give us the abilities to walk alongside them and support them.  For God to help us love them unconditionally especially when things get challenging or difficult.

  • The new trainee due to start in the bakery on the 21st November, pray against fear or doubt that may creep in for her and that we will be able to support and teach her to the best of our abilities.

  • Sarah, who has been having problems with her left foot and needs to have surgery.  If all goes according to plan the surgery is due to happen on the 19th October.  She will be away from work/bakery for 1 month to rest her foot.  Pray for speedy healing and recovery.

  • Sarah’s Mum – please continue to keep her health in your prayers.

Then he said to me, “This is what the LORD says to Zerubbabel: It is not by force nor by strength, but by my Spirit, says the LORD of Heaven’s Armies. – Zechariah 4:6


*Niim’s name has been changed to protect her identity.

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Graduation Celebration

Unfortunately we haven’t managed to update our blog as often as we would have liked.  However both of us have been extremely busy setting up the Freedom Bakery, the budget, business plan & business strategy.  Setting up and overseeing a new project takes up a lot of time, coupled with setting it up in another language and cultural differences that adds to the many challenges.  Sarah also had to come to terms with seeing 2 women leave about half way through the training, however it is hoped they will take the opportunity to come back.

Designing their finale cake for their graduation ceremony.Designing their finale cake for their graduation ceremony.

Paul has been busy beavering away on the budget for the bakery and over seeing the financial aspects of the project on a daily basis. He is also still budget monitoring for the jewellery & t-shirt area and doing statistical monthly reports for outreach, childcare, transition home/trafficking in persons, song sawing church, the coffee shop, playing in morning worship and still teaching some of the women how to play bass guitar every week.

Sarah has also been wearing many hats; Handling marketing, material & ingredients sourcing, teaching the 12-week intensive bakery course that she also had to prepare as well, including a Food & Hygiene and Health & Safety course that all had to be delivered in Thai. She has been teaching the course every day (Mon -Fri) from 10.30 – 17.00. It would be tiring teaching it in English, so teaching it Thai has been very tiring indeed. At the end of the working day, her brain is frazzled! Quite amazingly during the training we were also taking in customer orders as well; for the month of May we had 2 orders every week!  The word about the bakery is starting to spread.  The last day of the bakery training course was on the 29 May.

Graduated bakery team and finished cake.Graduated bakery team and finished cake.

Sarah organised their final training project and all of the elements for their graduation ceremony and celebration.  On 5 June we saw the ladies graduate in a full graduation ceremony in gowns & hats with their final training project cake the centrepiece of the ceremony.  All of them accomplished so much whilst training.  When they first started in February this year, they were so scared.  They were unsure of the techniques, not confident, even the oven produced fear and fear sometimes pushed them to complain about the new techniques they were going to learn for the week or the crazy cake design/flavour order we had undertaken for a customer.  However they always managed to learn what was being taught and far exceeded their own expectations.  They are all so proud of their work and overjoyed with their new skills and abilities, which has opened new opportunities for them.

 It was a wonderful, precious and proud moment seeing them graduate.  There were tears of joy all round!

They worked hard during the 12-weeks and achieved standards of excellence which we are confident will continue.  Sarah has been privileged to watch their confidence, courage and skills grow.  She has enjoyed every moment of teaching and working with them.  

The bakery team and the ladies at NightLight have so much potential to achieve so much.  The graduation gowns and sashes were made by the NightLight sewing department and the flowers arrangements and bouquets by a very talented lady that works in the jewellery department.  Amazing abilities from the ladies at NightLight!  

During our time in the UK the bakery team will be taking the time to improve on all the skills & techniques they have learnt on their own and then go onto work into the feeder/partner bakery linked with the project in August/September.    

Thank you so much to everyone that has sent us emails of support and has supported this project financially through BMS & NightLight.  Your support is  making a tremendous difference of transformation in in the lives of these women.  

We are really excited how God will use and move this project forward.

 

Graduated bakery team cutting their final project cake. Graduated bakery team cutting their final project cake. 

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